another day

I did not sleep well last night, was worried sick about him, and yet he did not bother to reply sms or pick up my calls.

Sometime i do not understand why is it so hard to just pick up the call, and said, i am fine. I know that we are on a bad terms, but still, 6 months of feelings just do not go away in a moment of time. I did say harsh words to you over email, and acted like a drama queen, but that is just me. It was to make you angry, and hate me. Maybe i have succeeded. I just sent an email to the police department, and can only hope that his name is not on the injured list.

Went shopping for his birthday gift today even though it is still 3 months away. I hope you will be happy receiving the presents.

Sometime, i was thinking, what if something really did happen to him in frankfurt? Is there anything that i could do? Nothing. So many obstacles in a long distance relationship, and too demanding for someone who is paranoid about things.

Anyway, another day will be gone, and i just have to accept that he will not reply my smses, and i have to assume that he is doing well.